HEART OF SWORD

Facebook Graffiti lagging like FUCK and glitching like SHIT but HEART OF SWORD ON MOTHERFUCKING REPEAT YO.

WHAT AN ODD TIME TO BE SUDDEN-STRUCK BY FANATICISM BUT FUCK YEAH KENSHIIIIIIIIIINNNNNN

I NEVER DRAW FANART. RIGHT? RIGHT? RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT?

CORRECT ME IF YOU'RE WRONG

17. On the age-based change in gender dynamics sobre that tender issue of the strange, the new, and the complex interlacings of attraction

Something something about a pair of eyes...once upon a time.

And a certain anticipation, anxious expectation, imagined course and trajectory for a story molded completely from my one-sided mind.

I was under the impression that they'd be gone with age, fade as false conjectures, dissipate as we are continuously pushed out of the school's toothpaste tube, down the societal assembly line.

Somewhere is a spring of youth that always counteracts what I thought I had learned.

An especially well-placed pair of eyes (and their use) was all it took.

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More, more more.

I squirm in my seat as I feel the weight of inner dissatisfaction pinning me down by far outshadowing gravity's weight and pull and bottom-heavy center of downward keeling pressing coming-to becoming horizontal frontal dorsal contact with max surface area on the floor. Kissing dust, breathing through carpet loop and hole and fiber intermittent dust and mite and insect leftover with free-floating cleaning solvent residue.

Why me? Why now? I declared formal goodbye on that stage in life, where minimalistic contacts and exchanges of microscopic information magnified through my eyes that miss nothing see beyond plain views interpret to the degree of conjuring up nonexistent facts; out-of-proportion, out of proper theatrical cue as I simmer up the perfect myriad of melodramatic primordial soup fit for any three early teen budding bubbling ceremoniously ignored, ignored, ignored -- What is to follow? What do I feel comfortable and free to share, even now? Especially now? Twiddling thumbs, mangling fingertips tripping over letter and key, space and shift, rolling rounding blurring over thought like words unguided nanoscopic water treading down pinhaired repellent undistinguishable leaf and lawn.

Perhaps a name was a trigger. Perhaps it is like that other overflow causing such unnecessary concerns and piqued curiosities and tragedies and nervous breakdowns in disbelief in negativity. But this counterpart, if it counts as a counterpart in this fresh but related and not-so-different case, is older, has seen more, is based on some solid and justified (and I suppose positive by induced charge) ground.

And perhaps I'm making a way bigger deal out of this, again, as per the usual of then.

Depraved indifference

Quick doodle by mouse with all messiness covertly disguised to look like they're intended. All one layer on PaintBBS, 1 hour exact, see animation.

I stand by all previous statements re: mouse vs. tablet. Mouse can and should be able to achieve similar levels of work as any tablet, only at a slower rate. The only limitation lies in drawing freehand lines in one stroke, but even a tablet doesn't always get that down as smoothly as one can on paper, so that's a moot point. Also because of the time/patience issue with mouse, less effort tends to be exerted (especially post-exposure to tablet use)...and laziness is forever a human element that shouldn't be blamed on the tools.

GUILTY NONCHALANCE

Speaking of Steampunk,

FFFFFFFFFF LOVING HERMES x 10 ^ 6 RIGHT NOW. WHO KNEW HE HAD GOOD THINGS BESIDES FANCY SCARVES??









See full collection here. Yes yes it's more equestrian than steampunk, but SHHH I CAN'T HEAR YOUUU LALALALALALA LA LA LA

Random moment of relevancy in learning is random.

(9:37:21 PM) Jarek: "What is truth?"
(9:37:23 PM) Jarek: XD
(9:37:50 PM) yuuzora: Since no one is omnipotent, no one knows for sure.
(9:37:56 PM) yuuzora: There is only perceived truth.
(9:38:03 PM) yuuzora: Empirical truth.
(9:38:07 PM) yuuzora: Scientific truth.
(9:38:10 PM) yuuzora: But no absolute truth.
(9:38:30 PM) Jarek: "If entropy will eventually destroy the universe, what's the point of achieving anything during life"
(9:38:35 PM) Jarek: watch everyone come in the next day
(9:38:37 PM) Jarek: wearing black
(9:38:40 PM) Jarek: and black lipstik
(9:38:43 PM) Jarek: and listening to bad music
(9:38:47 PM) yuuzora: *facepalm*
(9:39:06 PM) yuuzora: Jarek, if physics were ALL MIGHTY AND POWERFUL, there would be no universe, no existence, no anything.
(9:39:10 PM) yuuzora: Remember matter and antimatter?
(9:39:18 PM) yuuzora: Everything is supposed to cancel out evenly.
(9:40:23 PM) yuuzora: But the Swiss found that when matter converts between antimatter, some sort of minuscule, almost negligible, acceleration causes the difference for matter to exist just slightly longer than antimatter.
(9:40:40 PM) yuuzora: That is enough to make the difference in allowing existence to happen.
(9:41:33 PM) yuuzora: That explains the existence of non-organic material.
(9:42:13 PM) yuuzora: The existence of life, that life should also exist at all, is a result of just-as-small coincidences that go against all assumptions of otherwise.
(9:44:00 PM) yuuzora: That the first organic compounds existed, that CARBON existed at all, and chanced to make the first amino acid, the first nucleotide, the first system that doesn't even qualify to be called an organism yet starting to collect other molecules to be converted into other molecules from which it can extract energy to convert even more molecules?
(9:44:07 PM) yuuzora: It's all against entropy.
(9:44:12 PM) yuuzora: Yet, chemistry happens.
(9:44:21 PM) yuuzora: Organic chemistry happens.
(9:44:33 PM) yuuzora: Van der Waals forces, or London forces, remember them?
(9:44:43 PM) yuuzora: They happen because electrons just don't happen to be stable.
(9:45:05 PM) yuuzora: That they just don't happen to have solid orbits, that they simply happen to occur in clouds and their exact positions never known.
(9:46:19 PM) yuuzora: That even in non-polar and neutral molecules, they have random moments of polarity.
(9:46:24 PM) yuuzora: Allowing for reactions, when they just happen to bump into each other, at those random moments when they just happen to be polar.
(9:46:44 PM) yuuzora: Allowing for things that would eventually lead to life.



(9:47:23 PM) yuuzora: It's just random moments where all the crazy shit you were required to learn suddenly come together...
(9:47:37 PM) yuuzora: Where as you've always assumed they were useless before.
(9:47:38 PM) yuuzora: =/
(9:47:44 PM) yuuzora: And even then, science is so very limited.
(9:47:44 PM) Jarek: hey~
(9:47:48 PM) Jarek: dont say that about a me
(9:47:56 PM) Jarek: you've never learned about electronics D=
(9:48:17 PM) yuuzora: We don't know the answers to these things. The existence of everything is because of, particularly, EXCEPTIONS to what we think is true from science.
(9:48:32 PM) yuuzora: I tends to use second person loosely.
(9:48:49 PM) yuuzora: Don't feel comfortable using "I" sometimes.
(9:48:49 PM) Jarek: you and your imaginary points of views XD





Unrelatedly, steampunk is officially now the rule of cool. I can't believe how many years post-Keith-Thompson this took me to realize.