Cocktails and roller-coaster rides

Recent interactions with parents have shown that I've been a poor hypocrite over something I thought I understood well, again. Hooray for personal growth and underestimation of the extent of truth in my own beliefs! Now that I'm musing things over, this had to be what officially finally pulled me out of last-last week's crazy-mode. Due credit is due.

(Thank you, again. I cannot stress this enough and can't wait until I can tell you exactly how significant this all is. If anything will, this would be the one stroke to finally convince me that I do wish for serious business beyond superficial level.)

I have never experienced a longer two-week period in my life. Never have I been reminded of this many people, especially in this extremely surprising order: Ph, ponyfag, AN, and now, suddenly, Я. This fact alone warrants the label 'roller-coaster ride' to only maybe the tenth power. I can feel breath knocked out of my chest simply from arriving at this realization. The unlikeliest and least expected is happening, and I'm scared (trembling, still) of giving in and letting my self-restraint go.

I barely know you.

My last fear is that I am mesmerized by my superimposed idea of you, rather than the genuine article of you. I need to know.

Mental and physical exploration for answers are my only two (real) goals for this weekend. I can hardly contain myself.

Eggling Day 55

Not sure whether it's because I moved Rahel, but Estha's overtaking her in height by leaps and bounds. Her bigger new leaves suggest she's fine, though.

SO MUCH LOVE ♥

Eggling Day 49

The second set of leaves are budding on both. =) Sprout number 1 was so loosely attached to the soil that she was knocked onto her side one day simply from watering, so I transplanted her to the center, behind sprout number 2. I don't know why I think of #1 as a female and #2 as male, but they both need names now. WILL TAKE SUGGESTIONS ♥ ♥ ♥

Whirlwind

I'm still shaking so much that I'm afraid my hand can't do more. For now. Even though you don't care for this type of thing anyway.

I'll wait.

I miss you.

Eggling Day 37 - 42

UP-UP-UPDATE: Day 42 (1/12/12)
OH NOES~ SEED CAP STUCK ON NOGGIN, WHAT DO?

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I've only seen beans sprout before, so it was fascinating to watch these guys come out butt-first, wiggle butt around for a day to find soil, plop in, and then retrieve head out of seed. Fascinating and not to mention SO INCREDIBLY MOE. ~__~


Day 41 (1/11/12)
A second sprout! =O See if you can spot it. *___*


I haven't been this giddily joyful in a very long while. Life is good.


Day 39 (1/9/12)
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Day 37: A sprout! =O See if you can spot it.

The paper containing the seeds started to disintegrate about a week in, and in any case, it didn't look like any of those sprouted. I've been gradually adding the additional given seeds and still have around half of those left. Currently debating whether to be happy with this one darling sprout or try to get a second one in...

Alas, my cognition

I'm having these moments more and more frequently now. It's a bit disarming.

1. Going on a shopping trip using someone else's list, even if it's as short as two items. Blank out, left wondering what the second thing was.

2. About to do something, full of excitement and eagerness, and forget what it was after a distraction as minor as opening a new tab. Left wide-eyed and dumbfounded over what I was thinking of doing, barely even a second ago, while still feeling the gush of enthusiasm.

3. Jumbling up letters in a typed word, and not in the typo/timing manner. e.g. hitting t first while trying to type "continue." This happens sometimes when writing by hand, too. I catch myself while doing it. That's a good thing, right?

4. Stuttering/misusing basic day-to-day words. Thankfully, this is mostly limited to Chinese. But still scary to have to pause, think, and figure out what part of "xí wӑn jῑ" [dishwasher] I messed up pronouncing.

5. Forgetting common words. This happens mostly with English. e.g. totally unable to recall the word "towel," and having to resort to describing qualities of the item to others in hopes that they can identify whatever the fuck I'm talking about.

6. ...