Glowing mouth

Where will I go? Only I know now
Moving through the wet trees
to find your glowing mouth
I could see the wind's house
on the eastern side

I hope that you'll believe me
when I say I'm still alive
open and waiting for you

open and waiting for you

Adoratio

Overall a very exciting album and very, very fun :o A lot more impressionable than Vitium and may very well rival Immortalis once I get settled in. This track in particular is already possibly the most-listened-to song of 2017.

Now can we pls also get new musics with Deg instead of a bunch of re-recordings, pls? :D

AIM

Holy

fucking

shit.

I mean, I guess it doesn't really come as too much of a surprise, and in any case all the important logs had already been saved many years ago. But...still, that's 15 years of relationships, at all levels of friendship and intimacy, across all levels of 1D through 3D interaction.

Thank you.

I've never really considered what I'd do if invisionfree was to sink one day. For a largely dying forum culture, I guess I should feel surprised that Ash has been consistent and stable  for the last 11 years? It was down for two or so days only once, ever, and yet...

Things I illogically take for granted and wrongly feel would stick around forever:

Dir en grey
Ashmunkenapple
my parents

And before today, apparently, AIM.

Happy Birthday Dogess

Holy crap it's been so long since I've even drawn, let along painted. I'm so fucking tired due to extremely smart time management choices, but at least HP is happy :D Here's to hoping Dogess likes it as well. (Thank you mister, and thank you mister. Couldn't have done it without you ❤︎)

Unmentioned was the fact that apparently I have a job that wasn't directly given to me by my parents now. I can even pay rent and shit! Wow! So grown up ;_;

Griffith Park

Didn't go up to the observatory this time because he needed to paint some quick, architecture-free hills.


Unrelatedly, this has been on single repeat. :o :o

Vasquez Canyon

Napped a bit under this ledge because the heat was horrible and headache was bad. :D Half the students couldn't paint any more before class was over because their electronics were overheating. Even my camera was burning. XD

Somewhere Hollywood

So there was this very loose plan to go up to the sign today, but for various reasons we decided to not consult Google and kinda instead just went down the first trail we found.

Eh, close enough.

Saw some cool ass rocks and crows.

Also I fell on my ass and took some flicks while on the ground because misogyny. 

...What a funny number to reach. 😂

Eaton Canyon

Stumbled onto this place rather by accident after shopping. Overcast day + 1.5 hr til sunset = great for walking, terrible for pictures D: Next time will bring a real camera, and find the source of all this water.

Stillborn conversations

I was going to tell you my favorite book is French, and how it's a little sad to think I'll likely never get to read it in its original format. :D

CTN Roadtrip 2017

From two weekends ago, 6 legit hours on Saturday and 4ish not-so-legit hours on Sunday. I've never drawn this hard in my life, and I never knew ischial bones could hurt for 3 full days after the fact. :D :D :D

Incredible costumes and storytelling from Daniella Traub, John Tucker, Toni Sky, and Jonathan Cripple. All poses 5-10 min. Thank you so much for the opportunity.

Also Glenn Vilppu drew us. :o :o :o

What did you want me to say?

"I wish you were with me." Turn it into a smile
"I wish you were with me." I uttered with a smile
"I want you to stay by my side." I switch to put on my smile

How does that help anyone to have it be said?

Unfortunately my repertoire of coping mechanisms consists of a) to forget, b) to hide, and c) to numb, and needless to say, none of them have been working. I can't look away from you even if I get distracted and forget. What I want hasn't changed one bit since the last time we spoke on fb, except for the dread since then to actually speak out again. What good would it do? I'll wait this out, I say. With more time it'll be better, I say.

How does it help anyone to have that be said?

Partial figure/gesture drawins, Jan - April '17

Uh...guess I forgot to tag the times this time. Oh fucking well, it's the usual 1-25 min range. Looks like the models are mostly Toni and Catherine with some Yoni and Natalie. Very nice to meet Taryn and Shadia.