Depraved indifference

Quick doodle by mouse with all messiness covertly disguised to look like they're intended. All one layer on PaintBBS, 1 hour exact, see animation.

I stand by all previous statements re: mouse vs. tablet. Mouse can and should be able to achieve similar levels of work as any tablet, only at a slower rate. The only limitation lies in drawing freehand lines in one stroke, but even a tablet doesn't always get that down as smoothly as one can on paper, so that's a moot point. Also because of the time/patience issue with mouse, less effort tends to be exerted (especially post-exposure to tablet use)...and laziness is forever a human element that shouldn't be blamed on the tools.

GUILTY NONCHALANCE

Speaking of Steampunk,

FFFFFFFFFF LOVING HERMES x 10 ^ 6 RIGHT NOW. WHO KNEW HE HAD GOOD THINGS BESIDES FANCY SCARVES??









See full collection here. Yes yes it's more equestrian than steampunk, but SHHH I CAN'T HEAR YOUUU LALALALALALA LA LA LA

Random moment of relevancy in learning is random.

(9:37:21 PM) Jarek: "What is truth?"
(9:37:23 PM) Jarek: XD
(9:37:50 PM) yuuzora: Since no one is omnipotent, no one knows for sure.
(9:37:56 PM) yuuzora: There is only perceived truth.
(9:38:03 PM) yuuzora: Empirical truth.
(9:38:07 PM) yuuzora: Scientific truth.
(9:38:10 PM) yuuzora: But no absolute truth.
(9:38:30 PM) Jarek: "If entropy will eventually destroy the universe, what's the point of achieving anything during life"
(9:38:35 PM) Jarek: watch everyone come in the next day
(9:38:37 PM) Jarek: wearing black
(9:38:40 PM) Jarek: and black lipstik
(9:38:43 PM) Jarek: and listening to bad music
(9:38:47 PM) yuuzora: *facepalm*
(9:39:06 PM) yuuzora: Jarek, if physics were ALL MIGHTY AND POWERFUL, there would be no universe, no existence, no anything.
(9:39:10 PM) yuuzora: Remember matter and antimatter?
(9:39:18 PM) yuuzora: Everything is supposed to cancel out evenly.
(9:40:23 PM) yuuzora: But the Swiss found that when matter converts between antimatter, some sort of minuscule, almost negligible, acceleration causes the difference for matter to exist just slightly longer than antimatter.
(9:40:40 PM) yuuzora: That is enough to make the difference in allowing existence to happen.
(9:41:33 PM) yuuzora: That explains the existence of non-organic material.
(9:42:13 PM) yuuzora: The existence of life, that life should also exist at all, is a result of just-as-small coincidences that go against all assumptions of otherwise.
(9:44:00 PM) yuuzora: That the first organic compounds existed, that CARBON existed at all, and chanced to make the first amino acid, the first nucleotide, the first system that doesn't even qualify to be called an organism yet starting to collect other molecules to be converted into other molecules from which it can extract energy to convert even more molecules?
(9:44:07 PM) yuuzora: It's all against entropy.
(9:44:12 PM) yuuzora: Yet, chemistry happens.
(9:44:21 PM) yuuzora: Organic chemistry happens.
(9:44:33 PM) yuuzora: Van der Waals forces, or London forces, remember them?
(9:44:43 PM) yuuzora: They happen because electrons just don't happen to be stable.
(9:45:05 PM) yuuzora: That they just don't happen to have solid orbits, that they simply happen to occur in clouds and their exact positions never known.
(9:46:19 PM) yuuzora: That even in non-polar and neutral molecules, they have random moments of polarity.
(9:46:24 PM) yuuzora: Allowing for reactions, when they just happen to bump into each other, at those random moments when they just happen to be polar.
(9:46:44 PM) yuuzora: Allowing for things that would eventually lead to life.



(9:47:23 PM) yuuzora: It's just random moments where all the crazy shit you were required to learn suddenly come together...
(9:47:37 PM) yuuzora: Where as you've always assumed they were useless before.
(9:47:38 PM) yuuzora: =/
(9:47:44 PM) yuuzora: And even then, science is so very limited.
(9:47:44 PM) Jarek: hey~
(9:47:48 PM) Jarek: dont say that about a me
(9:47:56 PM) Jarek: you've never learned about electronics D=
(9:48:17 PM) yuuzora: We don't know the answers to these things. The existence of everything is because of, particularly, EXCEPTIONS to what we think is true from science.
(9:48:32 PM) yuuzora: I tends to use second person loosely.
(9:48:49 PM) yuuzora: Don't feel comfortable using "I" sometimes.
(9:48:49 PM) Jarek: you and your imaginary points of views XD





Unrelatedly, steampunk is officially now the rule of cool. I can't believe how many years post-Keith-Thompson this took me to realize.

Mood Exercise

With the theme of dream scapes. First was a frustrated 40-ish minutes in Chibi Paint @ fearsome that left me pretty pissed because it was going nowhere. Second two were done successively in SAI, each coming faster and easier and more relaxing than the last. AND IT FELT LIKE I COULD KEEP GOING FOREVAR, YOU KNOW, EXCEPT IT'S NOW BEDTIME.

I LOVE YOU PAINT TOOL SAIII AS IF ANY MORE CONFIRMATION WAS NEEDED <333 br="">


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EDIT: ...And apparently these are the side effects of a midnight stress-free color-throwing bonanza promoting the full outflow of information rather than that traditional bottling-it-all-up-and-forget-about-it approach:

- Waking up (without an alarm) at 6:30 AM feeling fully rested/awake/unable to go back to sleep
- Blasting this and this at full volume on repeat to wake neighbors up
- Chugging gummy worms/bears until mouth/throat feels like a fucking desert (takes around half a pound)
- TOTALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO SPS WHOOOO

PAINT TOOL SAI

IS MADE OF MAJOR WIN AND SHITS ANTICONSTIPATIONS AND GIGGLES, GUYS. I MIGHT EVEN HAVE REGULAR DIARRHEA FROM NOW ON, SRSLY. JUST LOOK AT THIS SHIT:

HOLY MOTHER OF GOD DID YOU SEE THAT? DID YOU FUCKING SEE THAT?? THERE'S A FUCKING COLOR BLENDING PALETTE OPTION THAT YOU CAN LITERALLY PAINT IN TO MIX COLORS. WITH DIFFERENT BRUSH SETTINGS AND SIZES. INDEPENDENT OF YOUR ACTUAL DRAWINGGGGG (!!!!!!!!!!!!1!! x 10^6).

HOLY FUCKING SHIT.

BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO KNOW, 99% OF JING'S SUPPOSED LONG-TERM BLOCK CAUSED BY MOST ALL DIGITAL MEDIA ACTUALLY STEMS FROM THE INCONVENIENCE OF COLOR MIXING. REGARDLESS OF WHETHER IT'S A SLIDER, WHEEL, OR GRADIENT, I HAVE NEVER BEEN COMFORTABLE FINDING COLORS LIKE THIS BEFORE. NEVER. AND WITHOUT BEING COMFORTABLE DOING SOMETHING AS BASIC AS THAT, IS IT ANY WONDER THAT I FIND DRAWING A MORE AND MORE DREADED AND TIME-CONSUMING BUSINESS TO BE PROCRASTINATED FOREVAARS?

THAT ALL ENDS HERE NOW, GUYS. IT ENDS.

PICTAR UNRELATED OH WHO AM I KIDDING IT'S TOTALLY HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW MAN. RIGHT DOWN TO THE EXPRESSION. HELL YEAHHH

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFff

The concept of home

is/has been traditionally associated with a withdrawal and zipping of words/ideas/self expression of any form. Certain changes do accompany aging (in their eyes), but so much is still unacceptable.

One (more) day.

...MAY ACTUALLY BE PUMPING SHIT OUT AGAIN

after I got this nifty little sketchbook from B&N this past weekend. Standard white 5" x 8" paper ordeal, but apparently...carrying it around 24/7 does help. This is so great I FEEL LESS ARTISTICALLY CONSTIPATED ALREADY, GOOD TIMES.

This guy's still half uncooked, and I'm unfortunately too busy currently admiring the raw scanning results to decide whether I want him medium rare or fully cooked. (i.e., Just a linesy The Mother look, or paint this fucker up so much you can't even tell it started out as a pencil sketch?) I drew this with the intention of the former, but since the scan turned out so insanely fair (for the first time EVER)...hm.

Also: Yes, sort-of-new signature. I've gotten myself in heat all over Keith Thompson's hot bodies again recently, and noticing his sig/stamp nonchalantly led me to finally decide that the one I've been using, since before 8th grade, was incredibly bulky and attention-grabbing in all the wrong ways. =/ I first signed things using this monogram H/cursive Jh/butterfly thing on stuff for drafting, 5-tech (Anyone even remember what those were?), and acrylic painting in Stuy, and I think it's about time I pick it up...officially, so to speak. Simplicity is key there.

(Unrelatedly, HOLY CRAP @ hair in that thing I drew in '05. Subconscious self-fulfilling prophecy much??)

Also also: While I was shuffling Teitum around in my Traditional folder, I dug up some more things I completely forgot about, like this lady here:

Raw from last autumn that I shoved so far back into the freezer, I can only hang my head in shame. I almost forgot I had once been so ambitious as to start a character illustration effort for Robert Jordan's the Wheel of Time... T__T

Mr. Sketchbook, I promise you plenty of food to come. This I do solemnly swear.