Livestream 051312

To the request "an elephant." Current desktop & strangely calming despite radical colors.

Eggling Day 164

Couldn't have done this sooner. The poor babies were root-bound to the max. I was hoping I could separate the two to give them more room in the big pot, but it's become impossible to tell where one ends and the other begins. Estha and Rahel.

"They were strangers who had met in a chance encounter.

They had known each other before Life began."

(Roy, Arundhati. The God of Small Things. New York: Random House, 1997.)

Hhh

I don't know what I'm doing or what I want any more. And that's a blatant lie. Sort of. If not for this unreasonable fear roping down my ribcage, I should be happy. Giddy, even. Maybe. Hopeful-hopeful and hopping single-footed forward to a prospective next time.

The second hand of my watch makes a tapping-scraping sound every time it hits that piece of crystal smashed inward on its face. Tap. Tap. Not loud, not muted, but a depressingly noticeable occurrence immune to the effect of habituation.

Imposition

I love assuming beyond what is actually the case. Or, maybe only with this one.

Watch the rest of today turn out so inconsequential that I wish I'd chosen the other thing, again. Looks like regret/dissatisfaction no matter which way I teeter.

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Update: Enjoyable, but nevertheless inconsequential. All is clear; triggers are all that remain. Soft, tangible points of condensed emotion.

And a general reluctance to slash his fragile expectations.

Eggling Day 142

Approaching the 5-month limit of the egg...will have to transplant soon. These guys are so robust that they've gradually been cracking the shell.

The scent they give off is incredible. =)

Have you ever

...felt like punching anyone in the face for no good reason?

Edit:
Took image down because holy mother of god I can't stand the sight of it any more. Here's some music for distraction in its place.

So ironic that my answer earlier in the day was an uncertain No/none that I remember, and right away became a Yes later the same day. Nothing personal, no haetin' or anything. It's just the picture for some inexplicable reason, LMAO.


(9:25:51 PM) realitystained: maybe because his snide-ness comes through very well in it?
(9:27:12 PM) yuuzora: Hahahahaha.....
(9:27:17 PM) yuuzora: That actually sort of makes sense.

That actually makes a whole lot of sense.

To talk nonsense in our sleep

You have such a heavy hand in turning this into your self-fulfilling prophecy. Is this what you wanted (to expect)? Is this your last vestige of...

?

I wish there was an empirical measure to map exactly how much was each of our own fault.