Light, milestone

Had a chat with parents today.
They're a lot more understanding and open than I imagined.


Oh snap.
What went down?


Well, started as joke banter with my mom as I whined about going to her salon.
By the time my dad joined in he was like WAIT WHAT THAT BLACK GUY'S HARASSING YOU??! THAT'S IT HIS ASS IS FIRED


hahahaha
Poor guy


I mean apparently there were other issues with the black guy.
Like how he called in sick today but apparently also told all the massage customers to NOT come in.
And my mom is all waving her arms going piss crazy because she does massage, too.
This is like sabotage.


sabootayge.
That sucks.


Anyway.
I told them what I wanted to do, and they're so fucking supportive it was a little scary.
Of course, they just ask me to be a tiny bit considerate.


You told them you wanted to move out?


Yeah.


Good for you.
I'd give you a hug if you weren't 2 hours away.


Well, like I'm about to say, it won't be a right away kind of thing.


Who cares?
You don't have to tell me this.
This isn't about me


You certainly had influence in this.
Anyway, my dad asked me to consider that if things go swimmingly, he'll be saying Buh-bye Amurikkkuh by April.
And my mom's salon is not yet on its feet.
He asks that I please stick around until at least one of them are stable in income.
After that I can do whatever the fuck I want.


Cool deal man.
How's it feel?


Fucking unreal.
I don't know, it still blows my fucking mind that all I had to do was...talk to them.
I feel like a fucking idiot. =D


Duh
They're human
And you're fucking 22 years old


Yeah.
Wow.


Just make sure you're doing this for yourself and no one else.

Cheesy romance covers

When was the last time I've felt this roused? Trudging on past heavy eyelids and unfocused hand, so intent on bleeding out every last nuanced idea.

I can take this further.

Eggling Day 69

Estha slants a bit towards the sun. But overall, they are growing so well.

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For some reason I'm just really feeling these colors. Kind of exciting because it's a part of the pallet I usually never touch. I'd like to flesh this out a lot more, but I'm also pretty realistic about my moods. Will update if I ever do push this closer to completion.

WHY AM I RAGING LIKE SHIT. SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT.

Final Update: Done for real this time & actually happy with results. 8D My desktop is now a shuffle of these three:

Cocktails and roller-coaster rides

Recent interactions with parents have shown that I've been a poor hypocrite over something I thought I understood well, again. Hooray for personal growth and underestimation of the extent of truth in my own beliefs! Now that I'm musing things over, this had to be what officially finally pulled me out of last-last week's crazy-mode. Due credit is due.

(Thank you, again. I cannot stress this enough and can't wait until I can tell you exactly how significant this all is. If anything will, this would be the one stroke to finally convince me that I do wish for serious business beyond superficial level.)

I have never experienced a longer two-week period in my life. Never have I been reminded of this many people, especially in this extremely surprising order: Ph, ponyfag, AN, and now, suddenly, Я. This fact alone warrants the label 'roller-coaster ride' to only maybe the tenth power. I can feel breath knocked out of my chest simply from arriving at this realization. The unlikeliest and least expected is happening, and I'm scared (trembling, still) of giving in and letting my self-restraint go.

I barely know you.

My last fear is that I am mesmerized by my superimposed idea of you, rather than the genuine article of you. I need to know.

Mental and physical exploration for answers are my only two (real) goals for this weekend. I can hardly contain myself.

Eggling Day 55

Not sure whether it's because I moved Rahel, but Estha's overtaking her in height by leaps and bounds. Her bigger new leaves suggest she's fine, though.

SO MUCH LOVE ♥

Eggling Day 49

The second set of leaves are budding on both. =) Sprout number 1 was so loosely attached to the soil that she was knocked onto her side one day simply from watering, so I transplanted her to the center, behind sprout number 2. I don't know why I think of #1 as a female and #2 as male, but they both need names now. WILL TAKE SUGGESTIONS ♥ ♥ ♥