Finals week.

Bad stuff happened a year ago. I remember snow and incredibly cold weather back then; we have rain now. (Is this so much the preferable?) People who claim they "forgive, but will not forget" are the most ridiculous bullshitters in the history of mankind. There is no forgiving if I remember. I cannot forgive if I remember. It is, more than a bit, physically and mentally impossible for me to do. Hopefully this clears up doubts and questions for people who wonder, and ask, and ask and ask again: whether that same question be in the form of audible words, of typed letterings in an IM, or of phrases encrypted in the glance of an eye, a gesture, a mere look at one's back disappearing behind a bend down the hall. Wait for me to forgive; it will never happen.

Switching back to speaking in a more generic sense now so most people can understand what the heck on earth Jing is talking about...

As of now, things are, at best, very complicated. I know not where to begin and don't really wish to go into details because 1) I sound like a whore (and if not, then at least a slut) even to myself, and 2) I sound whiny. As in, extremely whiny, because the "issues" (if they qualify to be called that), even when still in the back of my head, already sound pointlessly annoying and overrated to me, myself, and all that Jing-ness. Let's make a list because Jing loves lists. 8D

• Living by yourself before your time is, under all circumstances, not good for you. At all. Screw all those speeches on freedom; you don't need freedom in life. "Freedom" kills you; I know it has killed me.
• JIMMYN IS A FUCKING RETARD. (IN OTHER WORDS, GET ON AIM, YOU BOOB.) I DON'T KNOW WHY I WANT TO TALK TO HIM EVEN THOUGH HE GENERALLY PISSES THE HELL OUT OF ME WHEN WE TALK. AND HE POKES ME A LOT, TOO, WTF. I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M TYPING IN CAPS; I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE CAPS LOCK ON. I'M HOLDING ON TO THE SHIFT BUTTON AS I GO.
• CONTRARY TO WHATEVER HE MAY BELIEVE OR RECALL, I still remember him as the kid who once stole my last name on Sconex. Same as Faye. She stole my last name for a while, too (or maybe she still does. I haven't checked for a while). People, please get a last name.
  
• W = ???
• Phil = an evil-er and worser version of Yona. (Please leave my grammar alone.)
• Jason = psychiatrist-wannabe, but that isn't to say he's not impressive. Or maybe I've just been too careless around him and he's caught on too much for his own good. As of now, I know not what to do with him...not before I have another serious talk with the kid. And spring term comes; things will only get more complex. He may end up becoming my next rant-buddy.
  

And to continue Amy's trend of images of the drowned Ophelia, there's one from Jing as well. Also, everyone should take a look at this. It brings tears to my eyes because it's simply so beautiful. They took actual manga scenes...just imagining and looking at that makes me tremble.